Tag Archives: Childhood Sexual Abuse

I was a teenage sex slave

The moment I became a teenage sex slave. Each drop of blood signifies one month of that abuse. It began several weeks after my 15th birthday. A 25-year-old acquaintance, on hearing about my mother’s worsening mental illness and abuse, offered … Continue reading

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The night I learned to fly

“The Night I Learned to Fly” is the latest in a series of paintings that answer the question, “How did I survive?” By enduring unspeakable terror early in life, I learned to dissociate so well and so easily I could … Continue reading

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Why We Need Trauma Informed Care (TIC)

The trauma survivor’s Red Alert system is stuck on “HIGH,” but the trauma-uninformed psychologist has no clue. This one, at ChristianaCare thinks he is The Well And Knowing Doctor Who Bestows His Wisdom And Thereby Health Upon The Broken Patient. … Continue reading

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Unashamed of my Complex PTSD

A few people have asked my why I talk so much about Complex PTSD, or Developmental Trauma. I am open about my struggles with ​Complex ​PTSD and depression​ in part because I am not ashamed.​​ I have physiological conditions brought on … Continue reading

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Things Nobody Wants to Know Are Part of Me

The amount and magnitude of cruelty and contempt I endured in my life is mind-boggling. If I described to you some of the events that were common in my childhood you would vomit or at least feel like it. Yes, … Continue reading

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How to recognize a pervert

Unfortunately, there is no simple way to determine who is a pervert.  I’m talking about the kind of perverts who sexually assault other people. They don’t come from any given ethnic or socioeconomic background and they rarely look like a … Continue reading

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Star of wonder

A concept I came across in recovery from childhood abuse and trauma is that of going back to one’s childhood, to meet the child you were, and give her a gift with some words to go with it. Tell her … Continue reading

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This ain’t no bro joke

A recently created meme on Facebook asks “If American women are outraged at Trump’s use of naughty words, who in the hell bought 80 million copies of 50 Shades of Grey?” This equates the choice to read erotica with deserving to be sexually … Continue reading

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The depth of her strength

Long ago a tender, loving and trusting fairy child was born into a spellbound family. Under an age-old curse, her parents could not love. In an attempt to break the spell, the girl gave up large portions of her Self: … Continue reading

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Mother’s Day message: twisted

This morning I am considering how Mother’s Day began as a day for mothers to oppose war–so, as Julia Ward Howe wrote, “Our husbands shall not come to us reeking with carnage…Our sons shall not be taken from us to … Continue reading

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